''Missing someone''''

'I miss him day and night'

the day he left me i told my parents also that the moment i will forget him or i will stop missing him, will be my last day on earth... his dissappearance in my life changed me..i was never into writting, awll the time i used to be in a bubbly mood..he used to secure me from evil eyes... i never loved anyone more than him..i was never so quiet.. i used to have fun. i used to sing, i used to roam about here and there with him..but the day he left me, he took away my real nature.. still if someone asks me why do u keep urself lonely..i dont have explanation of their quieries..even i dont know that...why did he do this to me ? even i couldnt explore the reason behind it... whenever i used to have holidays..we both used to have a long drive...he used to treat me as a princess..when ever i wanted to buy something..and parents do not used to allow me..he was the one who used to buy that thing for me.....

he never let me feel the absence of my dad in my life..he used to act as a dad sometimes...i loved him very much.. he used to share every single moment of his life with me..we used to sit in a restaurant for hours and hours and used to discuss things happening in our life...sometimes he used to tease me and i used to get annoyed but i found him restless whenever i used to stop talking to him..then he used to bring fo me beautiful gifts just to start talking..this used to make me feel important..

but now the days have changed. He is not with me anymore..i have become very lonely... a sweet bubbly and naughty gal who used play pranks every now and then...now doesnt feel good in gathering.....

he did sacrifice his important things for me as u can say promotions, else he would have gone far from me...But now he has gone so far that we cant post letter even to him..because that place doesnt have address nor it has mobile towers...

you might be guessing for whom i have written so much..so me revealing the fact..he is my elder brother'''DEEPAK BORA''' who left me in a car and truck collision..

will i ever be able to meet him?i know i cant but still keep on waiting for him that he will come one day and will hug me after long 8 years....people cant understand my feelings..he was a father figure in our family...he too was very jouviale person, no one can forget him... very social. very helping natured he was .............but God wanted him in heaven as this planet cant digest simple hearted person... as per people he expired or left us for deep sleep.. but if i tell u the fact..'''I Died That Day ,means 15th december 2002''' Can u people bring my those beautiful days? and change my attitude towards surrounding..... ? No one in this world can take his place in my heart.... i loved him immensly, waiting for the day of final destination or disater..and then i will meet him and we will again be having beautiful days of past... i have seen in 21st century no one cares about others feeling..even i have seen most of the guys and gals do not like their siblings but he is the one who used to only think about me and my younger brother...we all miss u brother...i never felt absence of my father in my life as he fullfilled Dad" love... ''May God Gift every sister, a brother like him..so possessive. so protective,so loving and caring...he proved a saying of his name,,,Deepak..jiske taley humesha andhera hi hota hai..wo doosron ko roshni deta hai aur khud andheron mein khush rehta hai....